I was very excited when I went to the store to buy supplies. I was not sure what I wanted to create, but I knew I wanted to use paint and that this was going to be fun. I came home, got myself settled, and stared at a blank canvass. Who do I paint? Since I kept asking myself this questions over and over again without an answer, I posed it to my roommate; who do I paint? I explained to her that I didn't know who I loved more than anyone else that I would commit it to canvass. I question:
- If I paint one person, does that devalue my feeling for other important people in my life?
- Do I go totally psychotherapy and paint myself?
- Do I become that crazy dog lady and paint Lola?
- Should I paint an inspirational figure, such as Jimmy Carter (yeah, I mean that)?
- Now I wonder, if I think too much and I should just feel it?
- If I am this conflicted do I paint a question mark just to finish it?
I have painted a "portrait" with many, many (stick) people of equal stature against a backdrop of the many phase of my life bleeding into each other. That is the best I have right now. If I can find a better answer to who do I paint, I will paint another. The inability to thoroughly answer this question does haunt me a little. However, I know this is just where I am right now and I can only embrace it cheerfully.
Thanks for the soul search, Anna!
That....is....awesome!! I LOVE that painting! I hope you are going to put it up in your place. I knew it would be a tough question, but you found a perfect way to answer it :)
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